Not sure when it all began.. but it definitely dates back to my childhood days when I was in the boarding school. That’s when you would come along with my mom when she came to visit me or with my friends parents.You were very quite and shy but extremely attractive and charming. All the girls in school couldn’t take their eyes off you and would wait for me to introduce you to them. When I did , everyone dived right into you- like as if you were the most delicious treat they ever tasted. Well, what can I say….. you were our Knight in shinning Armour and we were all Rapunzel waiting to be rescued by you from the boarding school.
I thought, things would change once we went to College. Supposedly by then, we would have grown up and out of the fairy tale world. Surprisingly , nothing changed when it came to you ,except you didn’t visit us anymore with our parents instead made your rare appearance on special occasions like Valentines Day or on Birth Day’s.You were no longer the Shy guy from school but the lover every girl wanted to flaunt. You would fall on your knee and shower the girls with all the lines you crammed up from the Bollywood movies you studied diligently the night before. Honestly, no matter how cheesy those lines were, every single girl in the college fell for it. They didn’t care how many girlfriends you had or have. They still longed to be in your arms. Boy, now when I think of it, you were a real PLAYER !!(Was George Clooney your favorite actor back then?) Anyway.. .I was a silent spectator and was busy in my little world of hockey games & books. I did notice you though and of course I did have a crush on you..however.. I wasn’t crazy about you like the rest.
After we graduated from College and went our separate ways into the REAL world.I don’t recall seeing you again. Getting out of the college was fun since there were no more test(Exam)to worry about. Those dreadful test that gave me many sleepless nights. However, it didn’t dawn on me that those were just MOCK test until I stepped out of the College Gate.
As I began to gradually unravel the true fairly tale of life & tried to pass each “liv(f)e” test with flying colors- I did pretty okay on all the subject except when it came to LOVE. I had no clue about this subject especially when it came to loving a man. Having been raised in a all girl convent school and college and with minimal interaction with the opposite sex, it was hard for me to understand them. I picked up few books like “Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus” but… nothing seemed to help. I drove them all nuts and they did the same, because the language of our hearts were so different. Just when, I was about to give up on this subject and say, “What the F…, I don’t care anymore..”, that’s when YOU came along. I didn’t recognize you at first since it s been a while since we last met. However, when you held me in your arms and kissed me on my forehead and said , “Girl, I got your back. I promise you will pass this exam with flying colors, now that I am with you!”. I felt a deep sense of relief and respect for my new found Teacher.(Why did I not think of him earlier???.He had scored extremely well in this subject back in College and maybe was even better PLAYER then George Clooney.)You instantly spotted my weakness in this subject and with patience, imparted your knowledge about love and how to embrace it without choking it with insecurity and fear.
There was no turning back after that.I was on cloud 9 and felt I had the whole world in my palms. The journey of life after that was one long honeymoon……until, I woke up one day with severe tooth ache and my regular pants refuse to accept me. That’s when another reality lightning struck me !! . I had become so dependent on you to the point that , every time I felt I was falling off the cliff, I would reach my hands out to you. You were the answer to all the grey areas in my life. The consequence – I now have 12 cavities and my pant size went from 6 to 8 and even the 8 is making a fuss.
It’s time for me to apply the last lesson you taught me about LOVE – which is to let go even when you love someone dearly. It’s time we part our ways before I lose the very last tooth I have.Trust me, I will be fine and you will always be in my thoughts and of course I will come and visit you occasionally on Valentines day and my B’day but… not everyday. I will always love you………. – MY DEAR CHOCOLATE!!! MY LOVE GURU:)))
Anyone seen a six pack that wiggle – Wiggle Wiggle ;)?I haven’t seen one,until I saw my own video from last summer. Boy!! It was hilarious!!. What was even better was the Lady in Pink who is standing on the left hand side,behind the lady with a bag.
My weight loss journey continues in 2013. Will keep you all posted on my next six pack move in 2013😉 . Fill me in on your weight loss journey and any tricks and tips that worked for you. Would love to hear your story too.
Wishing all my blog readers a very HAPPY and a MEANINGFUL 2013!! Hope each day of the year will bring you closer to the true meaning of life and not be carried away by the wind of change. The change that I hesitate to embrace but who sneaks into my life, when I am busy running the rat race. It’s only been 7 yrs since, I moved to New York City and I definitely love the feeling of adrenaline rush,when I go out there to make my dreams come true. However, the pace at which this city and the people move overwhelm me at times.The Change in which we live in today is that- MONEY & POWER holds more value than any other other human values.The basic human values like honesty, integrity and loyalty seem to be mere words in the dictionary. I refuse to be part of this CHANGE and this rat race and so…here is my resolution for 2013- To slow down my pace and to smell the fresh air every morning and thank Buddha for giving me another beautiful day to walk in his footstep.
Here is a quote that I saw in my 2013 Pocket Calender that is perfectly fits into my new year resolution:)
“The trouble with being in the rat race is that even if you win, you’r still a rat”– Lily Tomlin.
Once again, sending you all lots of love , happiness and a prayer for a wonderful year ahead.Until next time.. here is prayer that is very close to my heart and I hope, it will add some meaning to your life as well.
Prayer to Generate Bodhichitta by Dalai Lama
With the wish to free all beings
I shall always go for refuge
To Buddha, Dharma, and Sangha
Until I reach full enlightenment
Inspired by wisdom and compassion,
Today, in the Buddha’s presence,
I generate the mind of full awakening
For the benefit of all sentient beings.
As long as space remains
As long as sentient beings remain
Until then may I too remain
And dispel the miseries of the world
“Aunt Chime…. A hardworking person with big dreams. Takes lot of time to get ready. Changes her mind really quickly , I mean really quickly.She will be like, today we will do that then after five minutes, she will be like oh let’s do that. She is a lazy-bum but works hard and fights for what she believes in. She doesn’t let anyone bring her down. She gets angry easily and takes her anger out on people, but that’s who she is and she’s perfect the way she is . I am really lucky to have a chubby Aunt like her”
This is how my 13 year old niece Dhasel described me ,when I had given her a writing assignment – which was to write briefly about someone you know. Boy! this took me by surprise. For sure , kids don’t lie (at least now) but, I was amazed to know how well she knew me inside out. Heads up to all the aunts out there – Make sure you are setting a good example coz, today’s kids are not the kids that we were back then. They are definitely watching every step we take.Anyway.. this was a surprise from her back in April 2012 , when she came to spend her spring break with me .
Today, when I got home from work. Guess who was waiting eagerly for me ?? Of course, none other then my niece Dhasel .She came with my brother and family to spend the weekend with me and mom.She gave me a big tight hug and said,”Ani, I have something for you” and reached out to the paper on the desk. I was very excited and thought , she had written an essay. When I looked closely at the paper , this is what I saw..
A well-thought -out plan on where the two of us are going tomorrow to do her shopping.She is from Boston but has done her due research about the mall in my neighborhood and where her favorite stores are located. She even knows exactly where she is going to have her lunch. Did you ever do anything like this when you were 13 yr old?! I definitely didn’t and I don’t think, I have done that even as a grown up. Kids, these days are full of surprises and you can expect the unexpected from them.
It seems like ages since, I wrote my last post. Did you guys wonder where I disappeared ?? Like my co-workers did yesterday, while we were on our way out for lunch.
Yesterday, was a sad moment for our team as you know, parting is never easy. However, the news of the deadly Sandy Hook elementary shooting in Newton , Connecticut was the worst way to part from your loved ones. 20 innocent children and 8 adults became the victim of person with a destructive mind. Sigh!! This leaves me to wonder… if the world is indeed coming to an end in 2012?
Alas! we can’t sit on the couch and wait for our turn to part from the world. We each have a duty & responsibility to make this world a better place. This is what motivates me to smile and get going when the dark clouds cover the beautiful blue sky.
“We are visitors on this planet. We are here for one hundred years at the very most. During that period we must try to do something good, something useful, with our lives. If you contribute to other people’s happiness, you will find the true meaning of life”
― H.H. The 14th Dalai Lama
This is the picture of the Funeral ceremony for Dorjee Lhundup who was only 25yrs old when he set himself ablaze on Nov 4,2012 . According to the eye witness news,it was told that his last words were.. he was calling out for Freedom in Tibet and return of his Holiness Dalai Lama to Tibet. This is now the 63rd known self immolation by Tibetans since 2009.
On Saturday night before I heard this news. I was having a great time with my friends when.. all of a sudden , one of them looked up and said..”Ohh no, .. another Tibetan just died from self -immolation today”… It was heart breaking to hear some one so young as 25 years old sacrificing his life for Tibet and Tibetans. It’s easy to say but… it’s harder to even feel the pain that he must have felt beforehe took this drastic action
THANK YOU ALL AND IT IS LOVE AND PEACE THAT WILL UNITE ALL OF US AS HUMANS AND I HOPE WE CAN JOIN HANDS TO SPREAD THE MESSAGE OF PEACE AND STOP VIOLENCE.To my non- Tibetan friends- If you like to read more about the recent self -immolation and Tibet’s struggle for FREEDOM. Here is a very good and short article written by a Tibetan in the Standford Daily.